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mood swings

Yesterday I felt so full of life and courageous. then in the space of late last night and this morning I became bitter, angry, jealous, anxious and suspicious.

I think I need to sit down and work out the root of these triggers.

Could be to do with dreams I had last night. Either way I’m exhausted and these mood swings are beginning to irritate me. I know I am being irrational, because there’s a rational voice in my head that tells me to calm down when I get worked up over insignificant things. I was also telling myself yesterday that I wish I was able to care for myself the way I care for other people and that I’m going to start doing that. The only thing that seems to be holding me back is fear that people will abandon me because I’ve started looking after myself instead of slaving away after others. Which when I type that out, and read it back to myself doesn’t make sense at all.

Time to get out of bed.

misery likes company

.. and my mindset is pretty equipped at doing that right now. I think I’m mentally torturing myself on purpose, because deep down i don’t feel as if i deserve to be happy or deserve good things to happen to me. I don’t understand why. Maybe someone can explain it to me. Or maybe I’m just crazy.


I’m tired 😦

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