I think this warrants a pat on the back. i’m actully going to aim to leave my bed, eat properly and get on with the work I’ve missed. I still feel miserable, but at least this way i can be miserable and get A’s. Rape has taken a lot of things away from me: trust, intimacy, sexual enjoyment, self confidence, mental stabily, but it doesn’t have the right to take away my education and achievements.
It’s like a black hole slowly sucking away everything that I let go of. I need to let go of it.