I want to stuff my face into a pillow and not wake up.
I want to jump in front of a train and end it all.
I want to stop eating so that my body breaks down and can’t function
I want to rot away in bed and hide from the world
I want my pain to end. But I don’t want to end.
I want to function but I don’t know how
I want to get a chainsaw and hack my abusers to pieces
I want to kick the shit out of their heads and stomp all over their bodies
I want to put several bullets in their skulls
I want them to feel an ounce of the torment that I feel
That I will feel for the rest of my life
I don’t know how to handle all these emotions
The suffocation
The never ending film of trauma playing in my head over and over
Day after day
Never ending
Why me?
Comments on: "Why me?" (2)
So sad to hear another tormented. So happy to find another Phoenix. We will find the light.
Hopefully 🙂