I’m very confused at the moment and as a result i am very tired.
i don’t really know what i’m sup;posed to be worrying about at the moment, but i feel as if i should be worrying about something, however i’m too exhausted to actually care.
i keep having strange dreams. but in these recent ones i’ve been facing up to the situation instead of trying to run away
last night i had a dream that i was infected with the hiv virus. maybe as the days go past my dreams are becomming more and more about the sexual abuse.
i can’t really stop that, because i have to sleep.
i wish there was a bin were i could throw all my thoughts into, put a lid on it and never have to look back at them again.