Back to normality

In all this drama over my non-existent relationship, i hadn’t had any of my nightmares about my mother.

But that was all put to rest yesterday when i dreamtshe was a madwon who had poured hot oil on me, burnt me with a frying pan and then turned into a rabid dog.

either that is some intense symbolism or there’s something in my sleeping pills.

i also dreamt about protecting my siblings.

it really upsets me that i haven’t been able to contact them or see them.

i plan to try and phone them after my exams are over, i don’t really have the energy for another bombshell in the form of my mother right now.